My Life is in His Hands

For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.
But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.
We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;
Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;
Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body. 2Corinthians 4:6 -10
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I received a call from a physician at Stanford Medical Center yesterday afternoon. They do not feel that surgery is a viable option. Due to the location of the tumor there are many complications that could arise. They have referred me back to Kaiser Oncology Department to begin Chemotherapy probably in mid February.

I do not understand why God is leading me down this road, but I do understand that God IS leading me. He never has and never will forsake me nor my family. He will be faithful Who has promised.

Continue to hold us up in prayer. He is an awesome God.

We love you all and are also praying for you today.

Your friends,

Clayton & Janiver and family

Waiting...

Well...

We went to Stanford today and learned that due to a glitch in communications, Stanford hadn't received authorization from Kaiser for the meeting with the Tumor Board. However, they put it on the schedule and discussed my case anyway...I just couldn't attend. Frustrating.

My doctor's medical assistant should call me tomorrow with the results of their findings. And hopefully all the paperwork will be approved as well. It is much easier to trust God in all of this than in man's devices.

When you enter the clinic, a pianist is playing soothing music in the lobby. Imagine our surprise as one of the songs she played was, "Here I am to Praise You". It was the only praise chorus she played while we were there.
I believe the Lord had her do it just for us.

Stanford also hires massage therapists to come to the clinic to provide free treatments for their patients who are waiting for appointments. It was 15 minutes of bliss and almost made up for the fruitless 2 hour, one-way trip!

I won't pretend that this past few weeks have been a piece of cake, but one learns that God NEVER fails. I love Him.

Thank you for all your prayers and phone calls and for checking in on this blog. You are all dear to me.

Janiver

Cleaning Closets

I like to start the New Year by cleaning closets. I have donated four bags of stuff to charity this last week. Stuff that no longer filled a need. I had quite a collection of denims that I'd planned to use for a quilt or some other craft. Fabrics that were once destined to be part of the family wardrobe, now passed on to encourage some one else to dream a while. And books. I always buy too many books. I do read them. But I always think, "I'll read that again." and don't. So it becomes clutter.

I inherited the tendency to save from two wonderful parents who grew up during the Great Depression. At least that's my excuse. But I have tried to adopt the maxim, 'When you bring something new into your life, take out something old.' And it seems to work pretty well. At least with things. As I've grown older I've learned to hang on to the things that REALLY matter. Friends, Family, Memories.

Cleaning closets gives me a time to reflect on the past year, what I've accomplished, and to affirm what I wish to do in the coming year.

Yours for a clutter-free 2008,

Janiver

P.S. Oh, yes. I did have the biopsy and it went well...just waiting to hear back from the results and the doctors' plans for me.

Love you all, my dear friends

Tests and More Tests

I went to Stanford last Wednesday night and had the MRI. I am scheduled for a biopsy next Thursday. We won't know too much for about two weeks. This is why they call us patients.

Thank you for checking in on me. Thank you for your prayers and support.

Janiver